Well, my greatest fear came true. I lost my beautiful twins. They were girls, and they looked identical. Here's the story...
On May 31st I woke up spotting. It was just brown, so I laid down for a while, and drank a ton of water. It went away, so I thought that everything was fine. About 3 hours later I was at Walmart and I went to the bathroom only to find bright red spotting. I decided to call the on call doctor. I wasn't too concerned since it was only spotting, and I was not cramping or anything like that. The doctor had me come in to the hospital just to be safe. (now I wish that I had called that morning when I first saw the blood.) Anyway, they hooked me up to monitors for what would be the last time I would here my girls. My cervix was checked, and it was found that I was 4 cm dialated with a bulding bag of waters. They could feel twin A's head in the canal. I remember screaming, and begging for them to help my beautiful daughters. The doctor actually had tears in her eyes as she told me that there is no hope. I asked for a second opinion. I was is such shock! I had just lost my son in November, I was sure that they had made a mistake! A perinatologist was called in and she did an ultrasound where my DH and I were able to see our daughters again. Unfortunately the US confirmed that I was indeed dialated, and I was contracting. They couldn't stop the labor, it was just too advanced. I labored without any pain until about 9pm that night when I finally asked for an epidural. It was a light block, so I could still feel my legs, but not the contractions. Our family arrived at the hospital around 11pm (they live 3 hours away from us and the freeway was closed, so it was hard for them to get there any faster. Apparently their trip took them about 5.5 hours!)
Amelia Maxine was born on June 1, at 12:59am after 5 minutes of pushing, and her little sister Abigail Jean was born at 1:24am. They were both born with heart beats, but never took a breath. We held our daughters as they passed which was approximately 1:45am.
The one positive thing that came out of all of this sh*t is that I know now that I have an incompetent cervix, and that if we try to have another baby we will know how to avoid this from happening again. It also brings some closure to our loss of Teddy since it is now believed that is what caused his premature birth.
We are in deep mourning, and shock. I wanted to thank you all for your wonderful support over the last few months, and I would like to lurk here everyonce in a while if it is okay with you.
I may not be around much, but I will be watching for you ladies to have beautiful babies!
Beth
Mother to three angels.
Theodore Michael B/D November 3, 2002
Amelia Maxine B/D June 1, 1003
Abigail Jean B/D June 1, 2003
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horrible news!!!
Posted - Jun 11 2003 : 00:33:17
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